INTP Challenge - What are you feeling right now and why?

[Groty]

Spinning off from the other thread (http://forums.intpcentral.com/showthread.php?t=1365).

Group Therapy... err.. Group Growth, anyone?


Even now, trying to explain, it's hard. That's our problem, I think. We want to be able to "explain" feelings sometimes, rather than just feeling them, like the rest of the normal world does. Whenever a feeling happens, the first thought that pops into my head is "why am I feeling like this?"

Sometimes, however, I'll think "I should be feeling ______" And I try to feel that, and it just doesn't work. Damn, this is very off-topic now.No longer off-topic IndieJade, cause we're turning it into a challenge.

So let us exercise, or exorcise, our F's. Find the emotion you are feeling, let's try to stay away from the basics like mad and happy, then find the definition. Finally, describe why you are feeling this way at this moment.

Frustration: a deep chronic sense or state of insecurity and dissatisfaction arising from unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs

My job is no longer challenging. It has fallen into repetitiveness. I don't like where I live. I can't find any stimulating people to spend time with.

[Groty]

Oh yeah, one more thing.

Let's fight any impulse to discuss whether a word someone uses is actually a "proper" emotion or argue about the definitions. That would be a rough tangent that would most likely crop up on this board.

;P

[Solo]

I think this is an interesting idea.

apathy:lack of feeling, emotion, interest or concern

Nothing in my life seems important enough for me to care. Nothing I do is exciting. All the things in my life just seem so not worth my time. I'm sure part of this is because I'm an INTP but just once I would like to have something hold my interest beyond me just thinking about it. I would like to actually do something with my ideas.

[MacGuffin]

Boredom with an undercurrent of frustration.

Same reason as Groty. My job is boring and too repetative.

[Werdna]

Frustration

I was just working on a math problem and I didn't manage to solve it.

[SheepDog]

I am afraid that I may never find a job that is even mostly enjoyable. I fear that my talents are wasting away doing stupid crap. Only in my leisure time do I do any real growth, and I'm so frustrated trying to make a difference at work, that my efforts go to non-career endeavors. It makes me sad to think that day after day is slipping by, and I don't feel any closer to finding a career that makes sense for me.

[mgb]

Severe Boredom. Not working.
Slight Anxiousness. From not working and not having money and worry that I might not find a job I like.

Edit for Groty

Boredom I am starting to talk to my cat a lot and I know that between 2 and 3 in the afternoon its only soaps so I play Settlers Online.

Slight Anxiousness Anxious because I have lots of bills to pay but only slightly because they don't have my new phone number.

[Zero Angel]

Bored and anxious, I have a few unimportant tasks that I dread that are accumulating.

I think I will go home and work on something like site/cms integration, then visit someone.

[mgb]

I had to get a few things off my chest, so I just wrote a rather charged letter to someone. In short, I feel relieved.

I love charged letters. Does anyone have some good ones to post?

[Edmond Zedo]

I'm in fear, I'm in anger. I'm in a desperate state.
I will be careful now, and I will make no mistake.

If there's a hard way...It's gotta be mine.
But I've learned my lesson. And I'm gonna be fine.

What's gonna happen? I need to know.
I don't want to suffer. Is it yes, or is it no?

[Sam172]

Satisfied

I am looking forward to the future and am rather happy at the moment. However this only came about due to a 2 hour conversation with a relatively new friend whom is like me is so many ways and shares my views on life. Though I am also feeling regret that I ate the last of my Vietnamese cracker/cachew nut - honey things from Janson Hong's Chinese Supermarket :(

[Boneca]

I feel relieved, but guilty.
My best friend just phoned and talked with me for an hour (!). I do like her, and I am very glad she called, but she talks too much. Now I feel totally drained, and at the same time I feel bad for wanting her to hang up.

Edit: I forgot the definitions.
relief - the feeling that comes when something burdensome is removed or reduced
guilt - feelings of culpability especially for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy

[Groty]

Aaawwwweeee....

I was hoping to compile a list of Emotions, with definitions out of this. Can ya'll start adding the definitions? I think it would be healthy to read the Definition of the Emotion in the context of the reason for the feelings.

I sometimes think I use the wrong words to describe how I feel, out of laziness. Or maybe it's because I've dumbed myself down to 5th grade word usage over the years.

[blue_eye]

Ah - you know what. I'm kinda to the point that what will happen will happen and the worst thing that will happen is failure. So you know just buckle up and expect for the worst hope for the best.

Yeah GROTY, good point. I think you can add words, they're all made up to describe very real ideas, concepts, things, theories, combinations etc. Definitly it can be done in the school of feeling (which is something in and of itself it may even prove the existence of a higher being).

But, how do we optimize our feelings and get to feel the way we want when we want. Or do we even know what we want, much less what we will want.

[tragula]

It's hard to feel much when you are not living in the present! Usually it's some sort of mild anxiety about the future, or slight melancholy about the past. Interestingly the birth of my son really focused me on the present. I was intensely happy for about 9 months!

For the most part I definitely feel "content" most of the day. Sometimes very frustrated, sometimes very happy. But it all averages out to a mostly positive emotional state!

[Utopmk]

Right now I am feeling frustration. My brand new vacuum just quit functioning. I couldn't figure out what was wrong so i smashed it into pieces and threw it from the deck of my my apartment. I'm sure that I made quite a bit of noise. Next time I'll have to remember to breathe.

[Vagabond]

Relieved.

[Jezebel]

Right now I'm feeling cold. I feel this way because it is in the 30s outside and my heater isn't working properly.

cold - Feeling no warmth; uncomfortably chilled.

[s]

I am scattered.

[synchronous]

homesick: definition - self explanatory.

I miss being home - seeing sunshine and breathing nice fresh air, going for walks in the forest with my dog, visiting my local library, enjoying my usual creature comforts. :( I look forward to flying back home soon :)

[Nindy]

Surreal - out of touch with myself and the outer-world, experiencing life as a dream and feeling a bizarre sense of apathy which has already been defined by Solo.

Why? Haven't got the slightest clue, honestly.

[purple13]

At the moment I am feeling euphoric.

definition: 1) a feeling of great happiness or well being; bliss
2) an exaggerated sense of well being in pathological cases involving
sympathetic delusions.

It's 9:23 PM CST and I'm about to go read (The Rule of Four). Very interesting book.

[purple13]

oooooh. I just realized my last post was #189. 1=Aries, 8=Scorpio, 9=Sagittarius
That's my sun, rising, and moon signs, respectively. mwuahahahah. I'm off to see the wizard. *skips off euphorically*

[Johnny]

uncertain: not sure; doubtful

I always have this feeling when I'm not doing something. Doing something distracts me from it, and I like that.

[jimkopelli]

annoyed and apathetic - I'm staying up working on a stupid project that has no meaning because it's to present to a group that has to decide on one of the things presented and it's already made up it's mind. Then I'll have to work on whatever stupid idea that they select... it'll be either be the one presented by the (stereotype-setting brick for brains) cheerleader or by Mr. "fear me I grew up in the bad part of Chicago. Well, near Chicago. Actually in a pretty nice suburb of Chicago. But I still try to act like a gangsta." :laser:
And they already shot down my idea because it was (and I quote)
"Art, not architecture."

Excuse me? Did I miss something? Is architecture not a form of functional art? Have we done anything directly related to architecture this semester anyway? (we haven't... other than... art projects... hmm.)

Anyway, I'm losing sleep and I don't like that.

[Dunearhp]

Nothing Whatsoever: Emotional state existing between or apart from all other emotional states. Absence of emotion, therefore having no opposite.

Right now I am in a between state. That which is behind, and that which is in front seem to have little effect on my emotions at the moment.

[flan2dave]

Liberated and relaxed, because I finished the bulk of my HW for this week.

[cloakable]

Angst. I am pissed off at the world in general.
Bored. There is nothing to challenge my intelect at the moment.

[indie]

Bleh

What? In this moment, it's a combination of numbness, disenchantment and detachment.

Why? I have no clue. . . I wanted to post an answer last night, but I couldn't because I couldn't identify my feeling (or lack thereof) at the time, and I still can't. "Bleh" seems to sum it up pretty well.

[Warrior413]

Isolated: Separated from others; solitary or singular.
Irritated: To excite anger or displeasure in; to provoke; to tease; to exasperate; to annoy; to vex; as, the insolence of a tyrant irritates his subjects.

Hmm... this thread just made me think of something... we should have some INTP-ish smilies, like one with no expression. I've actually made a "smiley" for MSN Messenger with no expression and I use it a lot for some reason. Okay now I've gone really off topic but I just had to say something.

[Boneca]

Hmm... this thread just made me think of something... we should have some INTP-ish smilies, like one with no expression. I've actually made a "smiley" for MSN Messenger with no expression and I use it a lot for some reason. Okay now I've gone really off topic but I just had to say something.That'd be great. : pokerface:, :thinking:, :getawayfromme:, :cynicalsmirk:, :bleh:....

[MacGuffin]

Smilies are used to indicate emotion not evident from the writing. Shortcuts. I don't need blank smilies to "remove" emotion - it is already missing.

[Jkrs]

Fatigue & mild dread (tomorrow was officially declared 'cleaning day'), with an overlay of vaguely positive energeticness thanks to the music.

[BritainOphira]

Boredom, general numbness. I would probably be dreading the ever immanent delivery of new furniture and the semi-formal I am going to tonight, but at the moment I don't care. The only good thing about it all is the lack of homework (all school authorities realize that most people show up to the dance completely smashed, and will never do anything else all weekend) and the excuse to paint my nails dark (not black, that is evidently not dressy, but a nice sheer gray over black that is exactly the same colour as my dress. Whatever...).

[Avengardh]

Increasing in contentement: I am almost done with school, and the only semester I have left now in the US anyway comes packed with relativity and animation.

Pretty fucked up but not really: I talked to my x a couple days ago, forgot how many or when, and he pretty much told me that he didn't know what he had till he lost it, and that we broke up because he was getting "stupid" and it was his fault. I know he was hinting at us perhaps getting back together in the future, but that's not going to happen.

Numb: Towards what I just described and many other things...mainly people in the world and how they see me, I went to get a new hair-cut and I got more stares than I would've liked. The funny part is, I don't really care.

Hyper: Cause I just woke up, and I don't know why I am hyper if I only slept 6.5 hrs instead of the 8 I need to get.

[purple13]

rested - I slept 13 hours last night.

itchy - i don't know if it's side effects from the anti-anxiety/depression meds, or some kind of allergic reaction to something else.

scared/confused - I had a dream last night that I went to the doctor and they told me my lungs were only functioning 30% instead of the normal 60%, because of my smoking habit. I don't have a clue what that means, except maybe I should cut down or quit smoking.

(plus misc feelings I'm not comfortable sharing)

[Warrior413]

Materialistic: 'tis the season.

[Arctic Skunk]

Surreal, as was previously mentioned. Also mild frustration at being unable to identify any more tangible emotions.

Oh well :resignation: :)

[indie]

It's pretty funny that so many of us have mentioned "numb" as "numb" is a lack of feeling. . . .

[Zero Angel]

Suffering, Sadness and Love. I have taken the time to think about all of the terrible evils that i've done in this world and had made the solemn promise to myself to atone for these actions. I realized that I began to hate myself and I felt that I was undeserving of love.

First I would make amends to those who I have hurt, then I would show my appreciation to those who I love, then I would stand up for myself without self-regard when my principles have been violated. I cannot allow myself to fear, because fear is the mind killer.

To this end I have chosen my own suffering as a means to grow. Pain is a temporary condition and if I condition myself to this and suffer willingly, then I will become strong.

[SheepDog]

Fear is the mind killer.
Two of my favorite quotes on fear are:
"We fear that which we do not understand."
"That which we fear, contols us."

[shadow1986]

I think I failed my exam

[zago]

Immediate mood: neutral, pleasant. I am a little hungry. I generally feel very good right now, although my legs ache a bit and I don't really know why. I have some things to do today, it is a beautiful day, and I'll enjoy them. Earlier today, I meditated on my deck during a ferocious thunderstorm. Yesterday was simply amazing.

Generally how I've been feeling lately: Pleasant. School's out. I have a lot of free time, and I use it pretty well. I've taken on several personal projects and feel pretty solid about that. I've been meditating about 1 hour a day, and I feel pretty good about that, too. Life's good.

[stigmatica]

My daughter had a fever yesterday, today it is mine. So, I feel feverish and achy. I'm in a good mood though, but my eyeballs hurt. Looking at the computer monitor makes it worse, and yet I can't stop.

[Trentham]

Tired and in need of a week's furlough from my 40 hour weekly incarceration.

[teleforce]

so bored i am going to die.................... but too tired to do anything.

[Lurker]

Angry that this thread exists! :angry:

Here's my reason:

http://forums.intpcentral.com/showthread.php?t=35464

/pimps own, modern thread