Controlling...anything

[Avengardh]

Wtf? I am an introverted person, it's true, I don't deny it. I hide away from the world most of the time, but when I go out I make it my point to have fun. Why? Cause I don't do it very often...
Now, I am 20 yrs old, young for some, old for some, but why is it that I always have to act like the 40 yr-old and not the 20-yr-old?
I understand that I am part of a family, but why must my mother always have the uppermost control when it comes to my life?

*SIGH* yes, this is a rant.

She screwed me up royally (mentally which led to then emotional damage) and I just recently realized that she is the reason why I am so wounded at the core. Yet she keeps doing it because she is not happy with her life. And yet I wish I could do anything to make her life better...being her friend is not enough...being good in school is not enough...I try to be with her when she needs me...but I can't always be there...my own mother is destroying me emotionally; the funny part is, I won't get out of it because I love her and I am the only friend she has besides my father....and they are the only life-long friends I have, really, all I have.

Heh, the drama of life *smirk*


~*Aven*~

[Last Song]

I'm sorry. =/

[int]

You're 20. Bolt. Move out. Get a job and go. It doesn't have to be far and your own set of keys might help. Take control.

[Strephonade]

If you're all she has to worry about, and you're around all the time, she'll focus a lot more on you. If you can muster the wherewithal to get your own life, she's done her job, and can then begin to move on.

[Avengardh]

*Sigh* that would be really easy if I wasn't Mexican ^_^

But thanks anyway...I appreciate the comments.

~*Aven*~

[int]

I'm failing to see the connection.

[Google Monster]

Tradition and culture I'm guessing. Same thing goes with the native americans in my reservation.

[Utopmk]

Or maybe she's not legal?

[Avengardh]

Or maybe she's not legal?

Depends on what you mean by legal?? O.o?

But yeah...it's really just the culture...and things got better...but it's kinda hard when you want to be independent but you know that your duty is to take care of your parents when they get old...
I don't resent it, it's just frustrating, which is why the above rant was created.

~*Aven*~