Too depressed to care.

[ohnoaninfp]

It seems that I am going through a stage of depression. Earlier I was hopeful about my classes. Now I am depressed it it feels like I don't care any more. I just want to sleep. It feels that I am close to crying even though I might be smiling. My heart feels broken and I feel that most everything is bullshit. I feel sometimes that the world is fake and nothing but a bunch of bull shit. I am tired of being depressed and I am tired of hurting. The pain is always there, even when I am laughing with friends, I feel like crying or screaming out in a rage. Not a my friends mind you, but at the greedy selfish world that I live in. Man I have to take my meds.

[file cabinet]

> My heart feels broken
why is it broken

> I feel that most everything is bullshit
yeah, I agree

> I feel sometimes that the world is fake and nothing but a bunch of bull shit
do you mean the world as is portrayed by the media and the superficial nature of most people?

> hurting
what makes the hurting?

what would you like to do to feel better? what would help the most?

[Melody]

ah so sad ;_;

[CeSoirNoir]

I feel somewhat the same exact way right now. All weekend all I wanted to do was sleep and I didn't care about studying. I'm trying to get over it...

[Utopmk]

I am coming out of a deep depression. My energy is getting out of control.

[Avengardh]

I am coming out of a deep depression. My energy is getting out of control.

Yeah...it sucks when my energy gets out of control, I usually get a lot done and then I just sit there, it's odd.

ohnoaninfp: Talking to friends might help, just about things...but to tell you the truth I think that it helps more to just talk to strangers about it...well...strangers like you, that can understand you. Like, I rant to indczn all the time and it's just comforting to know that you aren't the only one.

Although, from my experience, you are just going to have to either cry, or let it out somehow, exercise, or just something that helps you, perhaps even art. But that's just me, right now, I have a stupid cold and I didn't want to come to school, but I had to force myself to.

G'luck.

~*Aven*~

[ohnoaninfp]

Talking doesan't help. It never does. The sadness always comes back over whelming me. My friends are part of the reason why I am depressed. My best friend lies to my face and uses me. So, I stopped taking to her. I don't know why my heart feels broken. Maybe it is because of everythinh that is draggin me down. I hate how nice people pretend to be. They make you think that they are good people, when really they are nothing but selfish lying users.

[MacGuffin]

Talking doesan't help. It never does. The sadness always comes back over whelming me. My friends are part of the reason why I am depressed. My best friend lies to my face and uses me. So, I stopped taking to her. I don't know why my heart feels broken. Maybe it is because of everythinh that is draggin me down. I hate how nice people pretend to be. They make you think that they are good people, when really they are nothing but selfish lying users.

I hope you feel better soon. Take care of yourself. And if it gets really bad, I hope you will seek help.

Or watch comedies. That usually helps cheer me up some.

[Johnny]

Depression, for me, usually assumes an unconscious "holding pattern" of sorts. I've always been able to become conscious of this after some time has passed - a few days in the extreme - to start taking some kind of action...and I mean physical action. It gives my mind the ability to continue working on itself while I consciously distract myself with physical exertion.

Physical exercise may or may not do you any good, but it's something that has worked very well for me. :sombrero:

[s]

Depression, for me, usually assumes an unconscious "holding pattern" of sorts. I've always been able to become conscious of this after some time has passed - a few days in the extreme - to start taking some kind of action...and I mean physical action. It gives my mind the ability to continue working on itself while I consciously distract myself with physical exertion.

Physical exercise may or may not do you any good, but it's something that has worked very well for me. :sombrero:

I agree about exercise helping me.

I wish I could help. I have been there many times before. I had a near death experience that snapped me out of it the last time.

[Misty_Kye]

I've been there too. For me it would last 6-18 months and then subside. I would feel normal for a while until the next wave hit. I went on like that for about 10 years. Then I started volunteering at an animal shelter. Once I made the commitment, if I didn't show up the animals suffered and I wouldn't let that happen. It was my ticket out.

I hope you find yours soon.

[Avengardh]

Talking doesan't help. It never does. The sadness always comes back over whelming me. My friends are part of the reason why I am depressed. My best friend lies to my face and uses me. So, I stopped taking to her. I don't know why my heart feels broken. Maybe it is because of everythinh that is draggin me down. I hate how nice people pretend to be. They make you think that they are good people, when really they are nothing but selfish lying users.

Well, I think I meant more about people who were honestly good natured...if you talk to bastards they will only leave you feeling worse.

But like others have been saying, just doing something that helps you let it out helps (exercise works for me a lot), I think that, in my case, I repress anger so much that later on it makes me feel like I have tons of energy and that pisses me off even more. Getting rid of some of that energy helps me out.

If nothing else, you can just rant and flame about it in here, or a journal.

~*Aven*~

[Melody]

Just remember we love you very much. We want to have an orgy with you.


Talking doesan't help. It never does. The sadness always comes back over whelming me. My friends are part of the reason why I am depressed. My best friend lies to my face and uses me. So, I stopped taking to her. I don't know why my heart feels broken. Maybe it is because of everythinh that is draggin me down. I hate how nice people pretend to be. They make you think that they are good people, when really they are nothing but selfish lying users.
Kill her.

[Last Song]

I've been like this for maybe a year and a half, but more recently getting worse to the point where I am "slipping further into unreality". I just feel no need to mix with 99% of people, or even leave my room. Nothing interests me outside of music which is mostly made up of pretty depressing stuff. Meh. =/

What am I here for? What is my purpose?!? *sigh*

[ohnoaninfp]

I do talk to good people, but it never works. I am so overloaded with work I want to scream. I am having doubts about everything. Art, which I was so passionate about has let me down. I can't do anything right. I just want to lock my self in a castle and draw what ever the hell I want, and not give a fuck about what my instructors want. Sorry a burst of anger there. Drawing makes me depressed, because I am reminded how I don't measure up to the schools expectations. I have no clue on where I am going with my life. I am so lost. I just want the school and everyone else who places respondsibilities and work on my head to leave me alone. I just want to be with my good friends and not have to constantly worry about not being good. Even though I am with them I feel like crying. Please, there has to be something good. What inthe hell am I doing wrong?

[s]

Just remember we love you very much. We want to have an orgy with you.


Kill her.


I.. uh..love you, Melody. Don't forget that when I rail you in debates, okay. :ph34r:

[Google Monster]

Rail 'em!!! Quake rocks!!! QUAKE ROCKS!!!! RAIL 'EM!!

:laser:


Ummmm... am I out of context?







sorry

[Almaviva]

Yet another person here who is helped by exercise. It's hard to realize it though because when I'm depressed the last thing I want to do is do something active.

If you want to get really fanatical, you could try to supplement Omega-3 fatty acids with fish oil capsules. This has been scientifically shown to help mood. It may help me, anecdotally anyway.

I get depressed "the world is bullshit" moments too, and I try to laugh at them and remind myself that things do get better.

[flan2dave]

Yes, lots of sleep would help. A good dream is the most effective short term remedy to a foul mood I've found. Just hold out until the storm passes, the body seems to have its own sewer drainage system for depression that eventually comes into effect. You'll be more able to respond to the problems better once it does.

[jimkopelli]

Rail 'em!!! Quake rocks!!! QUAKE ROCKS!!!! RAIL 'EM!!

:laser:


Ummmm... am I out of context?

sorry
No. Stress relief is a good thing... play something where you have to blow things up, it's always made me feel a bit better.

[Utopmk]

Physical exercise may or may not do you any good, but it's something that has worked very well for me. :sombrero:

I find this to be working for me. Endorphins are like happy dope! 8O

[restoride]

i find when its at the worst... im concentrating on all the problems... and thats not going to work!

try looking at solutions, not even to your own problems, but any. that way, you might not lose sight that these solution thingos exist.

if you decide that there is something stopping you because you cant do it. cant is the ticket, the clue. if you FEEL you cant do it, in reality you probably can. keep an eye out for cants, and make sure you convert as many cants in to cans.

intp are fabulous at theory (above is proof), but dont seem good at following through... which says too things... follow through ... and i am a (stupidly depressed) hypocrit. ;)

[INTrPosr]

I read through some of the responses to ohnoaninfp. I am not giving any suggestions because many of these are good. I would just like to sincerely say to the group YOU ARE MY KIND OF FOLK! Kudos for your responses and ability to the sensitive sides to show!!

[Johnny]

Physical exercise may or may not do you any good, but it's something that has worked very well for me. :sombrero:

I find this to be working for me. Endorphins are like happy dope! 8O

:lol: :lol: :lol:

The human body rocks.

[heeroyuy]

Yea; I know what you mean. I was/am kind of going through a similar thing. Nothing is really wrong, except for the fact that nothing is right heh, if you get what I mean.

The world is bullshit, sure, but at the same time I guess it's kind of like...well, you just gotta get through it.

I suggest you take a weekend "off" and just basicly tell people to not talk to you, or else. Then take a bat, an old peice of equipment/whatever, and destroy it. Then sit down and listen to music. I did that a while ago and found it wonderfully calming.

Anywho...I hope you figure it out soon.